It has been a busy week but a good week. Monday and Tuesday were spent knee-deep in portfolio projects for two different clients. They needed to be done for a meeting Tuesday evening, and everything was printed and ready to go by 4:30pm Tuesday. It is so amazing - at the beginning of 2004 I made a commitment to myself to only work with great clients. There were all kinds of specific attributes I had in mind when I thought about exactly what "great" meant, and every single client I have worked with since then has, in fact, been GREAT. I am so thankful for this work and have so enjoyed it. The fact that I am getting paid for it is, in many ways, just a really nice bonus. I would work for these people for free (but don't tell them that.)
I had lunch with my friend Linda yesterday. I had been having a bad morning dealing with a family crisis and spending time with her was the perfect antidote. She always makes me crack up and it is just easy to hang out with her. It has been fun getting to know new people in LA, and the fact that I am already starting to connect with a few people who I know are part of my "tribe" is kind of astonishing in a city that huge. Linda said she liked the way my journal entries made day-to-day life seem interesting and fun, so I thought I would create an ongoing list of certain moments that catch my attention in a unique way and share them on this site. The new pages is entitled "Three Seconds of Eternity", a title I have outright stolen from one of my favorite books. You'll understand why when you visit the page. I cannot claim to be the creator of this title, but it is so perfect that I couldn't resist borrowing it. [Update June 23, 2005: I started this page but then wasn't keeping up with it, so I took it down!]
I have learned so well the importance of awareness in my life, of how being committed to a certain level of consciousness can help you weather difficult storms as well as sit in a quiet space of acceptance of whatever happens to BE at any given moment. It is like a compass, able to let you know where you are and what direction you are going no matter how lost you feel. This awareness has served me particularly well in situations where I am feeling sad, weepy, depressed and upset. Normally I would allow these situations to overwhelm me and send me into a downward spiral that could last for days, but now I simply sit with my emotions, knowing they will pass and I will feel better sooner than I realize. Through tears and dark clouds, I always remember that deep down I feel so great about my life and have so much to be thankful for, and this gives me tremendous comfort. Even if life is pretty darn good and there isn't much - or anything - you'd change about it, sometimes it is still difficult and sometimes you still feel blue for no apparent reason. The important thing to remember is that - like everything in life - it will not remain forever.
It is funny - I often think of my experience at Burning Man when I think about the flowing and impermanent nature of everything in life. Most people think Burning Man is a big hippie drugfest, but for me it was about basking in the glow of all kinds of creating simply for the sake of creating. Every year they build an enormous temple on the playa - a stunning work of art that takes months to build. I was telling my grandma about this, and about how they burn it at the end of Burning Man, to represent the notion that nothing is permanent or "forever", that it is the act of creating itself that matters most. Her immediate response to this was, "Like life." She totally understood that the temple was built and then destroyed to remind us all that nothing is forever, and that is OK. For long after something has been lost or destroyed or after someone we love passes on, they remain vivid and alive and whole in our memories, and this is not without enormous value. To have had the experience itself - of a friend or a work of art - is, in the end, the greatest gift.