I started this year with eyes open wide and my heart full of excitement over one simple fact that doesn't cross most people's minds with such frequency and intensity - we won't be moving this year. Knowing this, I have been able to approach my work with larger visions, more specific long term goals, and a stronger commitment to breaking some deeply entrenched bad habits. I know I am not even one month into 2008, but I am already breaking through barriers I had begun to fear might be too tall to conquer.
Over the past few years, during the feast episodes of my feast or famine work life, I had many chunks of time in my studio that felt fun, but this week I was able to let go of that anxious, I'm in a race feeling a little bit more, and the fun meter began to tilt a little farther to the right. I was in a bit of a mad scramble to finish up pieces for Nahcotta Gallery's upcoming Enormous Tiny Art Show, but I was able to relax into the process and even allow myself a bit of experimentation before finally diving into this most recent series. I put no pressure on myself to finish a certain number of pieces and I ended up with more than I thought I could accomplish.
There have been plenty of times when I have reached dead ends with my work, gotten frustrated and created works that I really did not like, but for whatever reason this week flowed beautifully. I know many would argue that great art is about struggle and pain and sweat, and perhaps there is an element of truth to that. But my work has had a significant element of struggle to it for so long now, through so many moves and upheavals and personal distractions, I am happy to invite more ease, enjoyment and yes - fun - into my creative process.
I believe I have barely scratched the surface here, and I am actually looking forward to that moment when I do it a wall...when challenges start to pop up and force me to spend more time contemplating how to solve whatever creative problem is before me. That time will come soon enough, and for now I am happily creating, eager to share my work, putting it out there and seeing where the wind takes it. I hope these latest little creatures fly to happy homes, where someone can look at them and feel the joy I experienced bringing them to life.
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