I have been posting a lot of these bird's-eye views from airplanes lately - have I just been fixated on my next journey or does it mean something else?
Either way, I'm about to have a rather large chunk of time to ponder that and any other questions rattling around in my brain. Five hours from Los Angeles to New York followed by eleven hours from New York to Amman - yes, I'd say that's plenty of time to over-analyze my choice of blog imagery for the past week.
Believe it or not, I am looking forward to the time. Time in an airplane means one simple thing: Time to myself. No phones, no internet, no errands, no laundry. Just me in a tiny space where I've been known to spend hours at a time just staring out the window. How often do I do that in my normal day-to-day routines? That would be never.
I have a few posts scheduled to go up this week while I am away, but I won't be blogging, emailing or twittering while I am in Jordan. I know there is a certain allure to documenting my experiences in real time, but I also know that any minute I spend with my attention on an iPhone or laptop is attention taken away from whatever I'll be seeing and experiencing in Jordan. It takes effort to stop, pull away from what is directly in front me and type whatever I might feel compelled to type, and in that break, time is lost. What could have been a naturally flowing experience is instead broken up in smaller bits - episodes interrupted by blocks of time spent with my head buried in a wireless device - head down, eyes on a screen, attention diverted away from what is going on around me.
This week, I will be in Jordan, and when I say I will be in Jordan, I mean I will be in Jordan. And although the technological wonders of our day could enable me to stay connected to the rest of the world with the same intensity and frequency that I have when I'm home, I'm planning on leaving all that behind, and saving my stories for when I return. It was an interesting thought experiment to visualize what it might look and feel like to be standing in front of Petra - fulfilling a dream I've had for years - only to take my full attention away from it to shout out to the online world that I'm standing in front of Petra. When I really looked at that, it became clear to me that my intention needs to be about being there, plain and simple.
I suppose a more succinct way of saying all this is that I am looking forward to stepping away from my computer and my phone, and enjoying a journey I've dreamed about for many years. Petra awaits, or should I say, I await Petra, and whatever messages this journey has in store for me.