I feel like my computer time is now having to be spent in stolen moments - late at night, in between this and that, after breakfast but before I head to the studio, after I come home but before dinner. And while I'm still not quite used to this - which means it is therefore not entirely comfortable - I already have a sense of how profoundly this studio experience could change my computer habits...not to mention a myriad of other details in my life.
Or maybe after my time in the studio is up I'll go right back to the way I operated before without so much as a blink - who's to say.
Regardless, this summer is a bit of an experiment in many ways. Actually - scratch that. It is entirely an experiment - in having a separate studio, in creating art, in new computer-related habits. I have already talked about creations coming out of me that I did not know were in me, but what I haven't talked about is how much this space is inspiring me to strip down to what is most bare and pure within my own self.
Right now much of the work I am doing involves tearing apart existing pieces that have been in my stash for too long. I am peeling away pictures, pulling apart layers and dismantling compositions that were carefully crafted not so long ago. And some of those bits and pieces are finding their way into new pieces. In other words, I am taking apart and re-building. I am cutting away layer upon layer until I get to the bare wood panel that has been supporting it all, and in this process I can't help but think about all the layers of noise that have gotten in the way of my ability to truly take what I am given.
I know I will continue to write about this as the summer progresses. I am wary of turning this into some big moment of drama - "The studio changed my life!" - but there are things being stirred about, and I can't ignore the feelings of release that seem to expand in new directions everyday.
“You leave old habits behind by starting out with the thought, 'I release the need for this in my life'.” ~Wayne Dyer